Someday March 18, 2010
In my little world these days, the only sound worse than Skylar throwing a temper tantrum is Micah screaming his brains out. There are times when our house is a very loud place. But the Bible tells us to “seek peace and pursue it,” which I take literally. So if it’s possible to avoid a total meltdown for all three of us, then that’s what I want to do.
When Micah’s fussy, there are two things that rarely fail to calm him down: the Ergo carrier and the bouncy ball. The combination of the two usually puts him to sleep (at least for a little while). But Sky is still adjusting to her brother, and the minute he goes into the Ergo she comes running at me with her arms out. “Hold you mommy!” she’ll cry over and over. So I do. And we all bounce together on the ball.
When Adam first took this photo he said, “Wow, you look so happy!” I am happy; having two kids is a dream come true for me. Though I can’t claim to be happy about all the time I spend these days pacing the floor or bouncing on that ball, I know someday I’ll look back at this picture and laugh. People even say I’ll feel wistful and nostalgic for this time in my life. Right now exhaustion keeps me from imagining that, but I’ve always believed that anything’s possible.
Linni, darling….’this..too..shall pass’..and all too quickly. Seems only a couple months ago…Skylar was that size…..look at all the experiences she has had in her short life..already!!
You are a wonderful mother…and as time goes by..you will gain the entitlement with grace…and in doing so…build some wonderful memories of your own….for you and Ad….and the children. I remember my mom telling me “don’t let your children grow up so fast…let them be kids as long as they can..because once they become adults..they’re adults the rest of their lives”. I remember telling my kids that…too…but in the meantime…I also learned…one doesn’t REALLY become an adult until around the age of 30…until then…it’s a learning experience too.
So…relax …take each day as it comes….and enjoy the moment. (Loved the photo)
Think of how good you’ll look in a bathing suit this summer with those toned thigh muscles after all that bouncing…
Pain is the touchstone of growth. not that it’s that painful necessarily just fatigue can seem like it. i have it. tired all the time over here, but it’s growth too. glad you are “happy”
God gives us a certain measure of grace and energy for one day at a time. If we look beyond that, it can become very overwhelming. The only thing I remember about Adam’s first year in life is it was a blur of activity between him and his barely two year old sister. I’m glad I have pictures and a few writings to show that there were enjoyable moments which outweighed the stressful moments. Laugh and play with them inbetween the work and include them in the work for it will be play to them right now. It will be worth it as time goes on and it will get easier.